When I was about 6 years old I had a part in my church play, Family Tree. I played a little girl who kept fighting with her older brother and sang a song all by myself (I wish Mindy were reading this - then she'd know I could sing, too). The song was called "Nobody's listening to me." I'm starting to get a complex. This blog is making me feel like that 6 year old little girl again. Where are you people?!?! Jaime, now I know what you were talking about when you thought you might be talking to yourself on here. Don't worry. After this experience I will NOT let you blog to yourself.
Come on, peeps...I'm beginning to understand even more clearly how important it is to have support while you're dieting. Two days ago I ate 4, yes 4, pieces of chocolate with peanut butter in it. Never fear - I'm back on track, but I think it may have stalled my weightloss. I drank 100 ounces of water yesterday to try to flush it out, but I didn't even lose an ounce in the last two days. Here's hoping I lose something tomorrow.
See you ladies in the morning!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Yippee for Jaime!!
Hey, Jaime! Tara said you can go back on the diet whenever you want!! That's great news. Do you have to re-load?! I say "have to", but right about now - or better yet, last night - I would have loved to. Welcome back to the battle, girl! We're glad to have you with us and we're here for whatever you need.
P.S. TARA?!?!?! Where are you?!
P.S. TARA?!?!?! Where are you?!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Abyssal Plains
Ok, so I'm not sure that a "plateau" actually describes what I went through for about 4 days last week. I mean the Tibetan Plateau in Asia is home to some of the world's highest mountains and deepest valleys. I definetly did not experience any moutain top highs!! I would sum up those four days as more of an abyssal plain (for those of you who don't remember back to high school science class, these are the flattest places on earth found on the ocean floor) - no life, no sunshine, no highs, just lows.
In hindsight, I was so cranky about it I didn't even want to talk about it. And yet everytime I looked at the Cheetos in the cupboard or the Malbec in the wine fridge a little voice in my head told me I was NOT going through this hell only to cheat. After all, that's how I got fat in the first place: one tiny justification after another. At this point I have probably broken the record for Google searches on HCG by an individual. Everything that I read said that these "plateaus" - heretofore more accurately referred to as abyssal plains - were normal. Most hcg dieters still see inches lost during their abyssal plain period. And if they hold tight, stay true to the diet and make it through, they will see a big loss afterwards.
Ladies, they were right. After a very slow week last week (especially compared to week one) in which I lost a whopping 4 pounds, I have now lost 4 more pounds since Monday. A few hcg tips to remember:
In hindsight, I was so cranky about it I didn't even want to talk about it. And yet everytime I looked at the Cheetos in the cupboard or the Malbec in the wine fridge a little voice in my head told me I was NOT going through this hell only to cheat. After all, that's how I got fat in the first place: one tiny justification after another. At this point I have probably broken the record for Google searches on HCG by an individual. Everything that I read said that these "plateaus" - heretofore more accurately referred to as abyssal plains - were normal. Most hcg dieters still see inches lost during their abyssal plain period. And if they hold tight, stay true to the diet and make it through, they will see a big loss afterwards.
Ladies, they were right. After a very slow week last week (especially compared to week one) in which I lost a whopping 4 pounds, I have now lost 4 more pounds since Monday. A few hcg tips to remember:
- Mix your proteins up. Don't eat the same two proteins in one day.
- Keep your proteins to 100 grams
- Don't mix your vegetables.
- Eat two different fruits each day. NEVER eat two apples in a day.
- Drink tons and tons and tons of water. (Note: "tons and tons and tons" = half your weight in ounces)
- If you stall for 4 days - as in don't lose an ounce - have an "apple day" (no food except for 6 apples throughout the day and "tons and tons and tons" of water)
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I"m back!
Hi hotties - I missed you guys this week! I would have much rather talked about my fat ass than what I had to deal with this week. I will fill you all in some other time as I don't want to blog about it.
Anyway - I had to take a hiatus from the protocol for a few days but luckily the scale stayed the same. I was so worried but I know made some better decisions than I normally would have and still didn't have any soda. That is HUGE for me. I am back on track and ready to roll again.
Wish me luck! :)
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Tomorrow..
Can't wait to see you girls tomorrow.. Tina can't join us, but I would ask that you pray for her, John and family.
She will share more if she wants, but I just wanted to put it out there so you can keep her in your thoughts.
And we thought losing weight was hard. Reality check, please.
She will share more if she wants, but I just wanted to put it out there so you can keep her in your thoughts.
And we thought losing weight was hard. Reality check, please.
Friday, April 8, 2011
A Lifeline...
Ok, ladies. You all know me by now. I am not cheating on this diet - I refuse to. No matter how crabby and irrational I become. So here is the good news...I found a chocolate recipe for HCG phase 2 and it actually helps boost weight loss (when eaten in moderation)!!!!!
It's called "Chocolate Delight". You can google it and you'll find a thousand different sites all confirming that it is legit.
It's basically unsweetened cocoa, stevia (plain or flavored), coconut oil, cinnamon (optional), and macadamia nuts (optional), with some water. You pour the mixture into ice cube trails and chill. Then, voila...you have chocolate squares. From what I've seen you can eat about 3-5 per night.
So, Tara, it's not a Twix bar, but it might help! I'm giving it a try tomorrow.
(And I've posted a few links about it to the right)
It's called "Chocolate Delight". You can google it and you'll find a thousand different sites all confirming that it is legit.
It's basically unsweetened cocoa, stevia (plain or flavored), coconut oil, cinnamon (optional), and macadamia nuts (optional), with some water. You pour the mixture into ice cube trails and chill. Then, voila...you have chocolate squares. From what I've seen you can eat about 3-5 per night.
So, Tara, it's not a Twix bar, but it might help! I'm giving it a try tomorrow.
(And I've posted a few links about it to the right)
The Weight of Water
"Tara" (allen asks)? "Yeah...?!?!!" "Do you want some more water?"
"Does it look like I want any more water?" "What are you talking about? I just thought I would get you some more if you wanted it..."
Now.. looking back at this conversation, it seems that I got a little bitchy. SO WHAT. Seriously... I don't know how much more water I can force myself to drink. But, herein lies the problem. If I didn't drink so much water, I would be really really hungry. Every time I want popcorn, or other various snacks.. I grab a glass. I have added tea, coffee, stevia, sweet n low, green tea, lemon juice, smashed up strawberries, ice cubes and cucumbers. I am afraid what my next step will be.
I am constantly scheming ways to make water taste better... I think what it needs is a big cookie, twix bar, popcorn, m&m's, pasta and vodka. A little tiny bit of water and a lot of all these things should do the trick.
My bladder is working overtime, I am waiting to see what my next water bill is going to be from all the toilet flushing going on, and let us not forget to mention: If I sit on a wet toilet seat ONE MORE TIME I AM GOING TO HURT (him) SOMEONE.
I just stopped typing the last paragraph to fill my water glass because re-reading the word TWIX above made me hungry.
So, with all that being said, I am going let Allen get me all the water he is willing to and I will slam my glasses of water because one thing is for sure, all this water is in some miraculous way making me skinnier.. And, so is my conviction to follow this through. This is just one more adjustment I am making in my life. It is all water under the bridge and I cannot wait to finally cross it.
"Does it look like I want any more water?" "What are you talking about? I just thought I would get you some more if you wanted it..."
Now.. looking back at this conversation, it seems that I got a little bitchy. SO WHAT. Seriously... I don't know how much more water I can force myself to drink. But, herein lies the problem. If I didn't drink so much water, I would be really really hungry. Every time I want popcorn, or other various snacks.. I grab a glass. I have added tea, coffee, stevia, sweet n low, green tea, lemon juice, smashed up strawberries, ice cubes and cucumbers. I am afraid what my next step will be.
I am constantly scheming ways to make water taste better... I think what it needs is a big cookie, twix bar, popcorn, m&m's, pasta and vodka. A little tiny bit of water and a lot of all these things should do the trick.
My bladder is working overtime, I am waiting to see what my next water bill is going to be from all the toilet flushing going on, and let us not forget to mention: If I sit on a wet toilet seat ONE MORE TIME I AM GOING TO HURT (him) SOMEONE.
I just stopped typing the last paragraph to fill my water glass because re-reading the word TWIX above made me hungry.
So, with all that being said, I am going let Allen get me all the water he is willing to and I will slam my glasses of water because one thing is for sure, all this water is in some miraculous way making me skinnier.. And, so is my conviction to follow this through. This is just one more adjustment I am making in my life. It is all water under the bridge and I cannot wait to finally cross it.
Popcorn. Seriously??!!
My lovely family decided to make 2 HUGE bowls of popcorn while watching American Idol last night and then proceeded to eat it right next to me on the couch. Seriously kids, this is taking your life into your own hands. I was on the edge b/c I was so PMS-y and not to mention I was sooooooo f***ing hungry!!!! OMG!!! Are you new to this house and not aware of how psycho Mom is right before "that time"? I literally got up and went in the bathroom and sprayed air freshener until I couldn't smell the popcorn any more. Thanks for the support jackasses!
To add to my torture, the girls want to go to see "soul surfer" tomorrow so I can be smacked in the face with the sweet aroma of buttery popcorn AGAIN! I may pack some febreze in my pocket. Please pray for me that I don't end up on the news b/c I lost my mind and dove into the giant popcorn maker at the theater......
To add to my torture, the girls want to go to see "soul surfer" tomorrow so I can be smacked in the face with the sweet aroma of buttery popcorn AGAIN! I may pack some febreze in my pocket. Please pray for me that I don't end up on the news b/c I lost my mind and dove into the giant popcorn maker at the theater......
Thursday, April 7, 2011
good news/bad news
Here's the good news - we are 1/2 way done!!
Here's the bad news - we are only 1/2 way done...
The lesson for me today is to find the glass half full. Instead of thinking about the bad, like what I can't eat or do (drink wine, go out to eat)I am choosing to think about the good, like what I can do! (wear smaller clothes, be more active with the kiddies,) It is helping me tremendously to have a better attitude and not flip out on my family. I am so PMS-y and would die for chocolate right now. I feared I might end up on the news in some surveillance camera footage shoplifting chocolate Easter bunnies last night. I had a a pity party for myself and then a little chat and decided that all of this sacrifice we are making is worth it. I have made it this far, I am not giving up. And besides, we are 1/2 way done. See I am positive!! Plus I really need a pedicure!
I hope you are all finding your ways to stay motivated and on task. I know the main reason I made it this far is b/c of all of you!
Here's the bad news - we are only 1/2 way done...
The lesson for me today is to find the glass half full. Instead of thinking about the bad, like what I can't eat or do (drink wine, go out to eat)I am choosing to think about the good, like what I can do! (wear smaller clothes, be more active with the kiddies,) It is helping me tremendously to have a better attitude and not flip out on my family. I am so PMS-y and would die for chocolate right now. I feared I might end up on the news in some surveillance camera footage shoplifting chocolate Easter bunnies last night. I had a a pity party for myself and then a little chat and decided that all of this sacrifice we are making is worth it. I have made it this far, I am not giving up. And besides, we are 1/2 way done. See I am positive!! Plus I really need a pedicure!
I hope you are all finding your ways to stay motivated and on task. I know the main reason I made it this far is b/c of all of you!
At a Snail's Pace
This week has been really weird for me. The days seem to fly by, but at night I get discouraged, think about all the food I want to eat and can't, and then watch the clock hoping I can go to bed soon so I don't have to think about it anymore. I pretty much hate my day after 7pm. Then on the flip side, I wake up in the morning, I am not hungry, and I stay busy. The distractions of the day seem to help make this diet feel more like a positive change and not a restriction.
All in all, the diet is slowing down to about a pound a day and I think it is slowing my excitement, too. Not my determination, just my motivation. I know, I know. A pound a day is still good, but for some reason it doesn't feel like it. I find myself looking at the calendar thinking, "Ok, you can do this. Only 14 more days."
Lucky for me, it is morning, the sun is shining and I am, once again, in a more positive mood. Off to TJ Maxx - I just have to force myself to ignore the clothes section. Can I tell you how excited I am to be done with this just so I can buy some new clothes?!?!
All in all, the diet is slowing down to about a pound a day and I think it is slowing my excitement, too. Not my determination, just my motivation. I know, I know. A pound a day is still good, but for some reason it doesn't feel like it. I find myself looking at the calendar thinking, "Ok, you can do this. Only 14 more days."
Lucky for me, it is morning, the sun is shining and I am, once again, in a more positive mood. Off to TJ Maxx - I just have to force myself to ignore the clothes section. Can I tell you how excited I am to be done with this just so I can buy some new clothes?!?!
Fresh Air
My windows are open and my house is filling with fresh air. I have a pot of coffee brewing. I can hear the water dripping delicious drip by delicious drip. I have my iTunes blasting and it is just me here, sitting in the middle of a mess. The upstairs is clean, girls drawers have been cleared out, purged, washed and re-stocked with clothes for warmer weather. My bedroom is next. My closet it after that. But, I am saving that for another day. I am saving that for the moment I can look at the clothes hanging in there and say (to most of them) I don't need you anymore. I don't need the baggy tops that hide my "toubled" areas. I don't need the skirts from 2001 (when I met Allen) that are too short, even if I do fit in them again. But I am not ready to do that, just yet.
That's the trouble with the truth, isn't it? Truth hurts. It means you bear your soul, you open yourself up and let the sun shine in. You dust off the dirt that has been cluttering and stocking up on your sills, shelves and bones. The trouble with the truth is that once you face it , you have just created a sh*%load of work for yourself! Because now, as I am shedding these pounds and feelings, I want my house and everything else to match. So this mess I am surrounding myself in is everything that has made its way from upstairs.
I have been feeling lighter this week. (Besides moments of hormonal rage). I have been lifted up by my friends, breakthroughs in Allen and the fact that Spring is finally showing it's face is helping too.
I don't feel like I am dieting anymore. I feel like I am eating like I am supposed to and not worried about what I am making to eat. Each and everyday this process is getting smoother and more manageable. I fear Tina's revelations are true: This is the easiest part. It maybe all uphill from here, but there is definitely a better view from the top.
That's the trouble with the truth, isn't it? Truth hurts. It means you bear your soul, you open yourself up and let the sun shine in. You dust off the dirt that has been cluttering and stocking up on your sills, shelves and bones. The trouble with the truth is that once you face it , you have just created a sh*%load of work for yourself! Because now, as I am shedding these pounds and feelings, I want my house and everything else to match. So this mess I am surrounding myself in is everything that has made its way from upstairs.
I have been feeling lighter this week. (Besides moments of hormonal rage). I have been lifted up by my friends, breakthroughs in Allen and the fact that Spring is finally showing it's face is helping too.
I don't feel like I am dieting anymore. I feel like I am eating like I am supposed to and not worried about what I am making to eat. Each and everyday this process is getting smoother and more manageable. I fear Tina's revelations are true: This is the easiest part. It maybe all uphill from here, but there is definitely a better view from the top.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Recipes
Hi Girls - I am not sure how to post a website like Rebekah did but I wanted to share one that I found some great recipes on . HcG1234. My 2 faves are the Apple Cookies and the Lemon or Strawberry Ice Cubes. Hope it helps your sweet tooth! It did mine! Happy Humpday!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
SUNSHINE!
I was a little desperate for some sunshine today so I bundled up with a warm sweatshirt and blankie and put on my fave slippers(thanks Tara) and sat on the deck for an hour! It felt so good soak it in that I actually dozed off for a bit. This is what I decided in my fuzzy, buzzy, dreamy state.....I KNOW this is going to get easier! I feel like God has sent Spring just for me this year! I am breaking out of my long hibernation and emerging into the sunshine. I can almost feel the warmer days ahead of us and I am imagining me playing with my kids and not hanging out on the sidelines. I am actually looking forward to a few events we have planned and not dreading the whole "oh god what should I wear?" scenario I seem to go through every time I have to dress up.
Every time I follow through on my water, meal plan, or vitamins, I feel like I am taking one step closer to that person I want to be. Thanks to all of you for awakening me and kicking my ass in the right direction! I didn't really know what I was getting into when Tara told me about this HcG but I am so happy I jumped in with both feet.
Every time I follow through on my water, meal plan, or vitamins, I feel like I am taking one step closer to that person I want to be. Thanks to all of you for awakening me and kicking my ass in the right direction! I didn't really know what I was getting into when Tara told me about this HcG but I am so happy I jumped in with both feet.
Funny stuff!
This has nothing to do with our diet, but my lovely daughter,Eden, just told me "the washcloth smells like penis!" A good laugh is the best medicine and burns calories. Your blogs bring much laughter and happiness to me! Love ya all!
To Infinity and Beyond!
Today was better than yesterday. I actually feel like every day I am in a battle. I am literally fighting this one day at a time. It's like I told you, I am not enjoying this, but I am doing it. We are all doing it! Yay me....yay us! Ok, so seriousness and encouragement aside, does the battle ever end?! Because sometimes it feels like this might go on and on and on....forever.
Tara, I have got to give you mad props for the orange chicken asparagus dinner. I had it again tonight. Love it! And tomorrow, for lunch, Phase 2 chili with bison meat. Yummy, yummy.
We still need a new name...
Tara, I have got to give you mad props for the orange chicken asparagus dinner. I had it again tonight. Love it! And tomorrow, for lunch, Phase 2 chili with bison meat. Yummy, yummy.
We still need a new name...
Chili Recipe
FYI - The chili recipe on the HCG phase 2 guidelines that Rebekah posted is fabulous!!! I made it for lunch. It is so good I could make it for the family. It also took awhile to eat because it was hot so that was a bonus!
Bad Week For Me...
Hello Hotties, I cheated yesterday ...at the funeral. I was sad and hungry and went over my 500 cal. For the record, my stomach hurt the rest of the day and my body felt weird. So, it wasn't worth it! But, for once in my life, I was looking forward to the next day to start over. For once, I could hear my brain speaking louder than my stoamach and my brain was telling me the right things-That I can do this! I felt like a contestant on the Biggest Loser.. the one that is kicked off because everyone knows this person can succeed at home! This diet really is manageable. Now, I will be on this diet probably longer that the rest of you, but I look forward to seeing results!. Okay, so bad week though because I'm getting my wisdom teeth out on Friday and am not sure what they let you eat or not eat and I do not want dry sockets. These wisdom teeth have been an ongoing issue since I was pregnant with Eli, so I should've had them out a long time ago. So, I am thinking I might have to start over and that is okay, because I will do this!
Britney Spears
Who knew Ms. Spears would remind me to stick with this thing?! Alivia found this old CD that had the song "STRONGER" on it. I was in the kitchen obsessing about what to eat and she just happened to crank the volume on the the part that says "I'm stronger than yesterday! Now it's nothing but my way!" Corny? Of course!! But it has been ringing in my head every morning when I wake up. Another day done girls and guess what? I AM stronger than yesterday!! We can do this!!! Have a fabulous Tuesday! Remember to tell yourself how beautiful you are and how STRONG you are!
PS- I really need a pedicure!!!! :) Jaime did you know that is the reward for next week to whoever has highest % wt loss?! As Charlie Sheen says "WINNING!" hahaha
PS- I really need a pedicure!!!! :) Jaime did you know that is the reward for next week to whoever has highest % wt loss?! As Charlie Sheen says "WINNING!" hahaha
Monday, April 4, 2011
Just Like Starting Over
Tara, I have to admit reading your post just now was encouraging to me. Today was a long, long day for me. I'm glad I'm not the only one. Instead of being motivated by our weight loss totals and morning meeting, I just felt like I was leaving the first 12 pounds behind and starting over again. It's exhausting. Driving by the Zesty's on Riverside, seeing the "Now Open" sign and forcing myself to drive past my favorite flavor (Cookies 'n Cream) didn't help any. It feels like the day I can finally enjoy a bowl of ice cream again is so far away.
Then tonight I watched "Biggest Loser". One of the girls has had two pretty unsuccessful weeks in a row. She was ready to give up, when her husband told her that she needed to find a way to break through the wall she was up against. Every other time she got as far as she has, she has given up. Every other time I've gotten this far, I've given up. I am only fooling myself if I think I will ever look any better (and, in turn, feel any better) if I can't find a way to push through this. The best things in life are worth fighting for, right? And if I am being honest with myself, I will never be truly happy with myself in the shape I am in now.
So tonight, I am not enjoying it, but I am pushing through....because I am not starting over again.
Then tonight I watched "Biggest Loser". One of the girls has had two pretty unsuccessful weeks in a row. She was ready to give up, when her husband told her that she needed to find a way to break through the wall she was up against. Every other time she got as far as she has, she has given up. Every other time I've gotten this far, I've given up. I am only fooling myself if I think I will ever look any better (and, in turn, feel any better) if I can't find a way to push through this. The best things in life are worth fighting for, right? And if I am being honest with myself, I will never be truly happy with myself in the shape I am in now.
So tonight, I am not enjoying it, but I am pushing through....because I am not starting over again.
If there is an advantage to free falling...
I am watching Grey's as I do taxes...
Meredith just said "If there is an advantage to free falling it is this: giving your friends the chance to catch you."
Once again I was reminded how lucky I am to have you all.
Meredith just said "If there is an advantage to free falling it is this: giving your friends the chance to catch you."
Once again I was reminded how lucky I am to have you all.
My current battle..
I am craving craving craving sugar... Rebekah, I think this is the source of our headaches. I have just read a ton of reports on the sudden decrease of sugar intake. Headaches are one of the biggest side effects!
Great! Now I have to be thankful for the dull ache in my head for the last 2 days!
And, let me just say, today was the first day I actually was truly tempted by chocolate. I don't know how much longer I can give it up.. If Allen ends up dead, don't be surprised if it's from chocolate chips being stuffed up his nose and his mouth taped shut. hahahahahah! ;) He is doing better than I (we all) am on this diet. What the f*%k ever.
Great! Now I have to be thankful for the dull ache in my head for the last 2 days!
And, let me just say, today was the first day I actually was truly tempted by chocolate. I don't know how much longer I can give it up.. If Allen ends up dead, don't be surprised if it's from chocolate chips being stuffed up his nose and his mouth taped shut. hahahahahah! ;) He is doing better than I (we all) am on this diet. What the f*%k ever.
thanks !
Just wanted to say thanks to all of you for taking this journey with me! Your comments and posts keep me smiling and motivated. I know I couldn't do this alone!
Also I found a fun drink - I steeped 4 green tea bags and poured them in a pitcher over ice and added the Vitamin h20 zero (lemonade flavor) with some fresh lemon wedges. It was fantastic! Obviously, you can't drink it all day long but it was a nice little treat to break up the water, coffee, & tea. The vitamin water zero is made with stevia. (It is on sale at Festival right now 5/$5)
Have a great Monday! :)
Also I found a fun drink - I steeped 4 green tea bags and poured them in a pitcher over ice and added the Vitamin h20 zero (lemonade flavor) with some fresh lemon wedges. It was fantastic! Obviously, you can't drink it all day long but it was a nice little treat to break up the water, coffee, & tea. The vitamin water zero is made with stevia. (It is on sale at Festival right now 5/$5)
Have a great Monday! :)
Week 1 Results
Ok, girls! Week one brought some incredible results. Way to stick to your goals and find the willpower to make it through the first week.
We saw Biggest Loser type percentage losses:
Tara: 4.3% of body weight lost
Jaime: 4.1% of body weight lost
Rebekah: 6.0% of body weight lost
Tina: 4.4% of body weight lost
As a group we lost a total of 37.5 pounds!!!! Incredible!
Amazing results, ladies!!
Goals for next week:
Tina: Drink the 85 ounces of water each day
Tara: Eat at 12pm and 5pm each day (no later than 6pm)
Rebekah: Fit into my jeans
Jaime: (let us know when you pick a goal - other than pounds/inches lost)
Ready, set, go......
We saw Biggest Loser type percentage losses:
Tara: 4.3% of body weight lost
Jaime: 4.1% of body weight lost
Rebekah: 6.0% of body weight lost
Tina: 4.4% of body weight lost
As a group we lost a total of 37.5 pounds!!!! Incredible!
Amazing results, ladies!!
Goals for next week:
Tina: Drink the 85 ounces of water each day
Tara: Eat at 12pm and 5pm each day (no later than 6pm)
Rebekah: Fit into my jeans
Jaime: (let us know when you pick a goal - other than pounds/inches lost)
Ready, set, go......
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Tomorrow and other news..
FYI: 100g is 3.524 oz... This helped me with portions today.
Regarding tomorrow:
1. Every body bring your dollar bills.... dollar dollar bill y'all! Can't wait to see them filling a jar
2. Come with some accomplishments to write down.
3. Share your favorite ideas for dinner/lunch.
4. Tina will explain the ribbon thing in more detail tomorrow.. I loved what she told me!
5. I'll have coffee and tea here for everyone... does anyone have some sweet'n'low they can bring? I am out.
6. I'll have the scale and we will also take measurements.. Rebekah, can you bring your notebook to keep track?
7. Everyone be ready to bring some ideas for rewards.. I need some good ole' competition to keep me motivated.
See you all tomorrow! How did one week go by already? Maybe it's because I've spent hours of my life on this blog! hahahha
Regarding tomorrow:
1. Every body bring your dollar bills.... dollar dollar bill y'all! Can't wait to see them filling a jar
2. Come with some accomplishments to write down.
3. Share your favorite ideas for dinner/lunch.
4. Tina will explain the ribbon thing in more detail tomorrow.. I loved what she told me!
5. I'll have coffee and tea here for everyone... does anyone have some sweet'n'low they can bring? I am out.
6. I'll have the scale and we will also take measurements.. Rebekah, can you bring your notebook to keep track?
7. Everyone be ready to bring some ideas for rewards.. I need some good ole' competition to keep me motivated.
See you all tomorrow! How did one week go by already? Maybe it's because I've spent hours of my life on this blog! hahahha
Was blind..but now I see
Today during church the sermon focused on the story of Jesus and how he made a blind man see. Not only was the Sermon funny, but is resounded more deeply than I anticipated.
How true this statement has been for me over this past week. I have closed my eyes for so many moments in my recent past life. When I looked in a mirror, when I tried on swimsuits, when I got undressed in front of Allen, when I was naked in bed and so many more. I also closed my mind to the fact that I was really OK.
I would not let myself begin to think ill of my body, or admit that I was gaining some weight, out loud. I said it to myself and reflection, many times, but never as publicly as this. I would refuse to buy bigger clothes (and then blamed it on the manufactures being persuaded by the like of Hollywood to downgrade sizes) and close my eyes to how my outside affected those around me.
Julia grabs my tummy (handfuls of it, really) and says how soft and squishy it is. Awesome. I used to think it was so cute and that I couldn't believe there was such an unconditional love being displayed in front of me. (As, it was always followed by "Mom, you are so beautiful. I love you so much!"). Maria told me that she liked me better when my boobs weren't so big and I could run faster.. I am not going to even comment on this one. Allen has always believed (although he has never QUITE come out and said so) that he would have a wife full of energy and not afraid to hang out at the beach for fear of looking fat in a swimsuit (forget that I burn as easily as a piece of white bread under the broiler).
I was blind. Because I chose to be. It was easier and more effective to get through each day. Through this process I have begun to see. I have begun to see the food I used to eat, the drinks I used to drink, the snacks I used to snack, the arrogance of arrogance and the real me I want to be.
I am promising to always keep my eyes open from this point forward. I want to see every moment of this through to the end. And then continue beyond when I don't think I can carry on another moment. I want to wear the jeans from the buckle that I love, and not be afraid to shop there for fear of what the girls working there might think. I want to see my heart open up to the possibility that the me ahead is better than the me I am leaving behind. I want to open my mind to all the revelations I am making as I continue the path.
I was blind but now I see. Thank God I have God. Thank God I have friends. Thank God I have me and the better me yet to come.
How true this statement has been for me over this past week. I have closed my eyes for so many moments in my recent past life. When I looked in a mirror, when I tried on swimsuits, when I got undressed in front of Allen, when I was naked in bed and so many more. I also closed my mind to the fact that I was really OK.
I would not let myself begin to think ill of my body, or admit that I was gaining some weight, out loud. I said it to myself and reflection, many times, but never as publicly as this. I would refuse to buy bigger clothes (and then blamed it on the manufactures being persuaded by the like of Hollywood to downgrade sizes) and close my eyes to how my outside affected those around me.
Julia grabs my tummy (handfuls of it, really) and says how soft and squishy it is. Awesome. I used to think it was so cute and that I couldn't believe there was such an unconditional love being displayed in front of me. (As, it was always followed by "Mom, you are so beautiful. I love you so much!"). Maria told me that she liked me better when my boobs weren't so big and I could run faster.. I am not going to even comment on this one. Allen has always believed (although he has never QUITE come out and said so) that he would have a wife full of energy and not afraid to hang out at the beach for fear of looking fat in a swimsuit (forget that I burn as easily as a piece of white bread under the broiler).
I was blind. Because I chose to be. It was easier and more effective to get through each day. Through this process I have begun to see. I have begun to see the food I used to eat, the drinks I used to drink, the snacks I used to snack, the arrogance of arrogance and the real me I want to be.
I am promising to always keep my eyes open from this point forward. I want to see every moment of this through to the end. And then continue beyond when I don't think I can carry on another moment. I want to wear the jeans from the buckle that I love, and not be afraid to shop there for fear of what the girls working there might think. I want to see my heart open up to the possibility that the me ahead is better than the me I am leaving behind. I want to open my mind to all the revelations I am making as I continue the path.
I was blind but now I see. Thank God I have God. Thank God I have friends. Thank God I have me and the better me yet to come.
Weekends SUCK
So this being the first weekend of the "diet" I am not going to freak out. I am going to take the challenges I faced and use them as a learning experience. Deep breath in and deep breath out......
Lesson 1~ The challenge of having the whole family home all weekend didn't occur to me. Let me tell you, it does now! I learned I need to be prepared with my meals and snacks b/c otherwise I am very tempted when they are snacking or asking me 100 times "what's for b-fast, lunch or dinner?"
Lesson 2~ Jellybeans are the devil taunting me with temptation. I wish I could say I told the devil jellybeans to go back to hell where they belong but alas, I wasn't that strong and ate a handful! However, I DID NOT let this destroy my confidence. I told myself, I didn't get fat b/c I ate a handful of jellybeans. I got right back on track and pushed even more water. Take that jellybeans!
Lesson 3~ Always carry water with you. I know this is such a stupid, simple thing to remember but dang if I didn't keep forgetting when I got in the car. I was tempted to fall back into my old habit of stopping at McD for a diet coke or Starbux for a latte. I need to make this lesson a priority.
All in all, I know I am making progress b/c the scale tells me I am. But the thing I am most proud of is that I am making progress in my head! And really, that is the most valuable to me b/c I need to make this a LIFESTYLE. My husband told me yesterday that my face was glowing and he couldn't see the sunspots on my face that I had when we were in San Diego. I am pretty sure all the water and no soda/sugar has alot to do with that but I also think it is the HcG. WOW another benefit! It motivates me even more to stay on track. Can't wait to see all of you beautiful gals tomorrow morning. Thank God the weekend will be over soon! :)
Lesson 1~ The challenge of having the whole family home all weekend didn't occur to me. Let me tell you, it does now! I learned I need to be prepared with my meals and snacks b/c otherwise I am very tempted when they are snacking or asking me 100 times "what's for b-fast, lunch or dinner?"
Lesson 2~ Jellybeans are the devil taunting me with temptation. I wish I could say I told the devil jellybeans to go back to hell where they belong but alas, I wasn't that strong and ate a handful! However, I DID NOT let this destroy my confidence. I told myself, I didn't get fat b/c I ate a handful of jellybeans. I got right back on track and pushed even more water. Take that jellybeans!
Lesson 3~ Always carry water with you. I know this is such a stupid, simple thing to remember but dang if I didn't keep forgetting when I got in the car. I was tempted to fall back into my old habit of stopping at McD for a diet coke or Starbux for a latte. I need to make this lesson a priority.
All in all, I know I am making progress b/c the scale tells me I am. But the thing I am most proud of is that I am making progress in my head! And really, that is the most valuable to me b/c I need to make this a LIFESTYLE. My husband told me yesterday that my face was glowing and he couldn't see the sunspots on my face that I had when we were in San Diego. I am pretty sure all the water and no soda/sugar has alot to do with that but I also think it is the HcG. WOW another benefit! It motivates me even more to stay on track. Can't wait to see all of you beautiful gals tomorrow morning. Thank God the weekend will be over soon! :)
Let the countdown begin...
I can hardly believe that in just 24 hours we will be back together for our week 1 weigh-in! Let me tell you, the last time I did this HCG thing my weeks were dragging by. I literally went to work and then came home and just waited until it was time to go to bed. In contrast, this time around I am excited about each new day. I feel energized and encouraged every morning.
Last night I posted a new link in the side bar. The website the link takes you to gives a lot of information about what HCG does in your body and how it will make you feel. It also addresses many of the FAQs we have about what to expect. There were two things that struck me: it is recommended to walk an hour a day; the first three days of VLCD are the hardest. So hallelujah, we are through the worst of it!! I felt great all day and all night yesterday (my day 4) which makes me believe this theory is correct. As for the walking part, I am going to do a little more research to confirm this. Now I'm not saying go out and run a marathon - strenuous exercise will exhaust you easier, but a few good walks in the "beautiful" spring weather would be kind of nice.
I have to admit I'm sort of enjoying the thunder this morning...hopefully it means spring is here to stay. Have a great rest of the weekend ladies, I'll see you tomorrow morning (dollar bills in hand).
Last night I posted a new link in the side bar. The website the link takes you to gives a lot of information about what HCG does in your body and how it will make you feel. It also addresses many of the FAQs we have about what to expect. There were two things that struck me: it is recommended to walk an hour a day; the first three days of VLCD are the hardest. So hallelujah, we are through the worst of it!! I felt great all day and all night yesterday (my day 4) which makes me believe this theory is correct. As for the walking part, I am going to do a little more research to confirm this. Now I'm not saying go out and run a marathon - strenuous exercise will exhaust you easier, but a few good walks in the "beautiful" spring weather would be kind of nice.
I have to admit I'm sort of enjoying the thunder this morning...hopefully it means spring is here to stay. Have a great rest of the weekend ladies, I'll see you tomorrow morning (dollar bills in hand).
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Question
We are suppose to take the meds right away in the morning right? And then stop eating at 6pm and take the meds before bed? I want to make sure I'm doing it right and how will I know if I messed it up by forgetting Friday night and not taking it til later Saturday morning. What's the word, Bec? Let me know if I"ve totally ruined it already!
I am still here, Peeps!
Tara has been very good to call me often and I have called her with questions about the diet. The first day was the worst! I was so hungry! But very encouraged by the 5 lbs. two of you lost. Okay, so Tuesday and Wednesday were my gorge days and the diet began on Thursday. I'm surprised I made it through the day with out unconsciously putting something in my mouth. I weighed in at Tara's at 208-wearing jeans and a sweatshirt. I weighed myself at my mom's Friday morning on a digital scale and weighed 201.4, so I am interested to see what it is on Tara's scale monday. Friday night, I was so tired, I forgot to take the "juice" and Saturday, I told everyone to leave me alone so I could sleep in and didn't take the "juice" til 11:30. How far back is that going to set me and now do I start with breakfast? Okay, just talked to Tara and she filled me in. I actually skipped my cooking class on Thursday, because we cook a meal and sit down to eat it and I just wasn't up to telling everyone about my new diet and I wanted to avoid temptation. My husband apologized for bringing the 12 pack of soda home and asked me if he could bring some eggrolls home. I told him to eat them in the car. He's trying! So, girlies, so far so good. When my mind wonders to Starbucks or somthing, I just remember -it never really tasted good in the first place or grossed me out aftyer I stuffed my face.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Metamorphosis
Before I spend an hour reading all of your posts and comments - and then commenting myself, I want to focus on putting up a post of my own, without distractions. The best thing about today was that I kept so busy, I barely thought about eating (until the dreadful Easter Bunny movie, of course!). That being said, the downside to this diet is that you can't keep too busy because if you don't make time to go home during the day you can't really pick up much to eat while you're out. Unless, of course, you stop to buy an apple somewhere.
Like each of you, I am having my own new revelations each day. Ok, maybe several a day. Here is the biggest one for me so far: I don't always have to do things on my own. It's o.k. to want, or even need, the help of other people. I think I've spent so many years proving to myself that I can do it all alone, that I have actually convinced myself that I prefer it that way. And the truth is, that's not true at all. Little did I know that the events of this past year were preparing me for this 30 day adventure. I've made more friends, kept up with more friends, been more social, spent more time with others and less time alone than any other time in the past 6 years. To be honest, some days it drove me nuts. The old me kept telling the new me that I just needed some "alone" time. Don't get me wrong, everyone needs alone time to reflect and just catch a breath; however, I had conditioned myself to think that I prefer to be alone. Little did I know that bit by bit I was opening up and allowing myself to let go of some of my independence and to let others in.
Tonight, I was thinking about this whole diet - wondering why it was working and why I wasn't depressed by the fact that I have 25 days to go. That's when I began to realize everything I am sharing here. I have always shied away from working out with others, dieting with others, basically because I never wanted to admit that I needed help and accountability partners (and because I didn't want to admit out loud that I needed to get healthy in the first place, but we'll save that for another session). The truth is, I have been missing out. For the first time in a long time, I am glad I am in this with someone else - with you girls! Maybe I could have done it without you, but not as well as I am doing it with you. Piece by piece, I am loving the new me.
Like each of you, I am having my own new revelations each day. Ok, maybe several a day. Here is the biggest one for me so far: I don't always have to do things on my own. It's o.k. to want, or even need, the help of other people. I think I've spent so many years proving to myself that I can do it all alone, that I have actually convinced myself that I prefer it that way. And the truth is, that's not true at all. Little did I know that the events of this past year were preparing me for this 30 day adventure. I've made more friends, kept up with more friends, been more social, spent more time with others and less time alone than any other time in the past 6 years. To be honest, some days it drove me nuts. The old me kept telling the new me that I just needed some "alone" time. Don't get me wrong, everyone needs alone time to reflect and just catch a breath; however, I had conditioned myself to think that I prefer to be alone. Little did I know that bit by bit I was opening up and allowing myself to let go of some of my independence and to let others in.
Tonight, I was thinking about this whole diet - wondering why it was working and why I wasn't depressed by the fact that I have 25 days to go. That's when I began to realize everything I am sharing here. I have always shied away from working out with others, dieting with others, basically because I never wanted to admit that I needed help and accountability partners (and because I didn't want to admit out loud that I needed to get healthy in the first place, but we'll save that for another session). The truth is, I have been missing out. For the first time in a long time, I am glad I am in this with someone else - with you girls! Maybe I could have done it without you, but not as well as I am doing it with you. Piece by piece, I am loving the new me.
Things I have learned today...
1. Going to a movie that shows Easter candy galore was like a porno. What the hell were we thinking??
2. I couldn't do this without my coffee maker or George Foreman grill. I have a crush on Mr. Foreman because damn that thing is GREAT!
3. I have a cupboard full of spices that I have never appreciated until now.
4. Cinnamon is now my new best friend.
5. I need to stay busy or out of my house because I snack when I am bored.
6. I sincerely couldn't do this without you 3. It is soooo therapeutic to write these things down.
I have already looked back on old posts from a mere 2 days ago and feel like I am making progress. Again, all the things I preached as a Jenny Craiger(or as we called ourselves "Jenny Keggers" haha but I digress) but never practiced. Turns out I did know what I was talking about!
Thanks for the inspiration and the giggles and the motivation to keep my ass going on this thing. It will alllllll be worth it! In fact, it already is! :)
1. Going to a movie that shows Easter candy galore was like a porno. What the hell were we thinking??
2. I couldn't do this without my coffee maker or George Foreman grill. I have a crush on Mr. Foreman because damn that thing is GREAT!
3. I have a cupboard full of spices that I have never appreciated until now.
4. Cinnamon is now my new best friend.
5. I need to stay busy or out of my house because I snack when I am bored.
6. I sincerely couldn't do this without you 3. It is soooo therapeutic to write these things down.
I have already looked back on old posts from a mere 2 days ago and feel like I am making progress. Again, all the things I preached as a Jenny Craiger(or as we called ourselves "Jenny Keggers" haha but I digress) but never practiced. Turns out I did know what I was talking about!
Thanks for the inspiration and the giggles and the motivation to keep my ass going on this thing. It will alllllll be worth it! In fact, it already is! :)
Jaaaaaiiiimmmmeee where arrrrree yyooouuuuu?
Just missing you! Hope you are checking in to stay motivated and encouraged! Love you.
Tangled.. and the life it brings.
This morning we have just rented Tangled, one of my favorite Disney movies. Its music and magic has temporarily taken over my home. And, that is just fine with me. Julia is entranced allowing some serious "me" time. She has not moved off the couch (or spoken to me) for 4 minutes. I think we are going for a record.
As I went to bed last night, my stomach sounded like a babbling brook. I read a few more chapters of my book and then turned off the light to ignore it. It worked. Distraction and pure will to ignore these things works.
This whole situation has helped me kick start another scary journey. Some real soul searching. Why have I let myself get like this and why haven't I been able to do anything about it before? Why do I still feel an instinct of "forget this.. I look fine" as I search for a random excuse here or there to quit? Why am I feeling so angry whenever Allen asks me any particulars about the diet? Who am I really upset with, him or me?
These are all of the things I am tackling right now. Not on an every minute basis, but a little nagging thought that ebbs in the back of my head. To write them almost seems more real than thinking of them. However, I have come to a realization that this whole weight-loss journey is more of a Tangled mess than I originally signed up for. And I am OK with that. If losing weight was merely about being a smaller size, I am not interested it. I think that is why, physically, I always appear to myself smaller than I really am. Because, truly, if I am this weight for the rest of my life I could accept that and move on, happily. BUT, if weight loss is more about getting rid of a deeper issue within that manifests itself my padding my body with lumps and rolls of unwanted waste.. then I am all in. That is what is worth this battle for me. That is my song and inspiration for the rest of this journey. This Tangled mess has got to go. The pounds, guilt, frustration, anger, disappointment and forgotten personal goals and victories. I can't wait for the finish line, when my outside shows the internal work I have done.
As the princess in Tangled exclaims many times over "I am NEVER going back". I am getting out of this tangled web I've weaved.
As I went to bed last night, my stomach sounded like a babbling brook. I read a few more chapters of my book and then turned off the light to ignore it. It worked. Distraction and pure will to ignore these things works.
This whole situation has helped me kick start another scary journey. Some real soul searching. Why have I let myself get like this and why haven't I been able to do anything about it before? Why do I still feel an instinct of "forget this.. I look fine" as I search for a random excuse here or there to quit? Why am I feeling so angry whenever Allen asks me any particulars about the diet? Who am I really upset with, him or me?
These are all of the things I am tackling right now. Not on an every minute basis, but a little nagging thought that ebbs in the back of my head. To write them almost seems more real than thinking of them. However, I have come to a realization that this whole weight-loss journey is more of a Tangled mess than I originally signed up for. And I am OK with that. If losing weight was merely about being a smaller size, I am not interested it. I think that is why, physically, I always appear to myself smaller than I really am. Because, truly, if I am this weight for the rest of my life I could accept that and move on, happily. BUT, if weight loss is more about getting rid of a deeper issue within that manifests itself my padding my body with lumps and rolls of unwanted waste.. then I am all in. That is what is worth this battle for me. That is my song and inspiration for the rest of this journey. This Tangled mess has got to go. The pounds, guilt, frustration, anger, disappointment and forgotten personal goals and victories. I can't wait for the finish line, when my outside shows the internal work I have done.
As the princess in Tangled exclaims many times over "I am NEVER going back". I am getting out of this tangled web I've weaved.
April Fools Day!
Today my inspiration is this...
April Fools day is my beautiful Grandma Garnette's birthday. She is 96! She lives on top of a mountain in West Virginia. She is an unbelievably strong woman. She had 5 children and became a widow when her youngest was 10. She lives in the same house that all of her kids were born and eats a Honeybun(little debbie processed donut) every morning for breakfast. I have never, ever heard an unkind word come out of her mouth. She always, always, always says in her sweet southern drawl "well, I love you honey" at the end of every conversation I have ever had with her. She has 5 kids, 10 grandkids, 8 great grandkids and 2 great great grandkids. She still sends me and my girls a b-day and C-mas card every year in her own writing.
We could all be so lucky to be like Grandma Garnette!
April Fools day is my beautiful Grandma Garnette's birthday. She is 96! She lives on top of a mountain in West Virginia. She is an unbelievably strong woman. She had 5 children and became a widow when her youngest was 10. She lives in the same house that all of her kids were born and eats a Honeybun(little debbie processed donut) every morning for breakfast. I have never, ever heard an unkind word come out of her mouth. She always, always, always says in her sweet southern drawl "well, I love you honey" at the end of every conversation I have ever had with her. She has 5 kids, 10 grandkids, 8 great grandkids and 2 great great grandkids. She still sends me and my girls a b-day and C-mas card every year in her own writing.
We could all be so lucky to be like Grandma Garnette!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Day 2...better
Ok, so first, we have blog readers in Singapore! Hahahaha!! (I mean welcome fellow Singaporians.) I posted a link to another blog in the sidebar. It has a ton of recipes. Let us know which ones you try! Hope it helps change it up a bit.
My day was much better than yesterday. I also found that the more time I took to prepare my food, the more I enjoyed it and the more filling it was. For example, the tomato I ate with dinner was pretty unsatisfying, but the steamed seasoned cabbage at lunch was great!
I'd be lying if I said I am not hungry right now...well, maybe it's not hunger, just habit. I literally sorted through about 1000 pictures today and I think I'm going to start scrapbooking. I need a hobby to keep me busy!
My day was much better than yesterday. I also found that the more time I took to prepare my food, the more I enjoyed it and the more filling it was. For example, the tomato I ate with dinner was pretty unsatisfying, but the steamed seasoned cabbage at lunch was great!
I'd be lying if I said I am not hungry right now...well, maybe it's not hunger, just habit. I literally sorted through about 1000 pictures today and I think I'm going to start scrapbooking. I need a hobby to keep me busy!
almost done with day 1 Thank the good lord!
A few things I was thinking about while my stomach was growling today.
Can we mix Benefiber into a drink? It would definitely fill up my tummy a little more between meals.
Are we allowed only one fruit at a time or all we can eat like the veggies?
I think I might have to go to Dr and get a Rx for a really strong sleeping pill to just knock me out and not let my stomach growling keep me awake! ha kidding but it would be awesome!
Also my fantastic husband brought home a dozen roses for me to celebrate my path to a healthy lifestyle! Awww although now I feel PRESSURE!! haha poor guy just can't win!
Can we mix Benefiber into a drink? It would definitely fill up my tummy a little more between meals.
Are we allowed only one fruit at a time or all we can eat like the veggies?
I think I might have to go to Dr and get a Rx for a really strong sleeping pill to just knock me out and not let my stomach growling keep me awake! ha kidding but it would be awesome!
Also my fantastic husband brought home a dozen roses for me to celebrate my path to a healthy lifestyle! Awww although now I feel PRESSURE!! haha poor guy just can't win!
REWARDS!
Some fun things we can do :
~when we do our mmsts we can make it into a ribbon so we can have something tangible to show us all of our hard work.
~an itune download.
~a trashy magazine to distract us from wanting to snack.
~a pretty journal &/or pen to write down how awesome we are
~ flowers or a plant
We also need to come up with a "goal" to strive for every week to stay motivated to win one of these things.
~when we do our mmsts we can make it into a ribbon so we can have something tangible to show us all of our hard work.
~an itune download.
~a trashy magazine to distract us from wanting to snack.
~a pretty journal &/or pen to write down how awesome we are
~ flowers or a plant
We also need to come up with a "goal" to strive for every week to stay motivated to win one of these things.
I was a little concerned this morning and had to pee like a racehorse. You know the worse you eat, the darker and smellier your pee is. Well, my pee was like water. And I didn't drink any water the 2 gorge days cuz I didn't want to flush any of those 4000 calories out. I don't know if I ever really got to that many calories. I was getting so sick of eating, but I kept piling it in. So, for today, I was thinking about drinking 32 oz. of water every other hour. Well, I'm already behind in that. I just had water for breakfast. Do we have to have tea or coffee for breakfast or is just water okay? And can I drink tea or water later in the day? Alright, so I started to get hungry around 10 and ate at 11:30. It is 1:00 now and I am hungry. Real hungry. I'll have to load up on water til dinner, which can't come soon enough!
Onto Phase 2
I was actually excited to wake up this morning and start phase 2. I did all my grocery shopping so I have everything I will need for the next week. I feel like I am finally headed in the right direction after all the crap I ate in the last 2 days. Can't wait for the Monday pow wow to see how we are all doing. Maybe we should have little rewards to look forward to....new book, flowers, magazine?? What do you think?? Also should we have fun little awards every week like "most pounds lost" or "most % body weight" or "best motivating tip" ? You know, something super corny to keep us excited and competitive????
I lost 5 lbs.
Seriously. Day one. I lost 5 lbs. I am not expecting this everyday, but an amazing jump start!!!! Just a little one line encouragement from me to all of you.
Rebekah, that is 10 lbs between us. We are at 10% of our 100 lb weight goal.
I am moved by all of you. And, I am moved by me.... This will be easier today than it was yesterday and tomorrow will be easier than it will be today. How can you not be excited about that?
Rebekah, that is 10 lbs between us. We are at 10% of our 100 lb weight goal.
I am moved by all of you. And, I am moved by me.... This will be easier today than it was yesterday and tomorrow will be easier than it will be today. How can you not be excited about that?
Are We There Yet?
That is exactly how I felt ALL day yesterday - like I was 5 years old and in the backseat of my mom's station wagon again. I kept thinking "How am I ever going to do this for a whole month?!" Then, of course, the mind games began. "This morning I was so excited to not be gorging on junk today. What happened?" As I started to analyze why I was hating this diet already, I realized two things: the first, that if it weren't for you ladies going on this journey with me I probably would have quit - or at least cheated - already; and the second, the first day is always the hardest. And now I know why. Every day after the first day, you can look back with pride at what you've accomplished so far. You find motivation in the pounds you've already lost and the days you've stuck to protocol. On the first day, you have none of that - only the thought of how far you have to go.
So first, Jamie and Tina, if your day was anything like mine, today will likely be the worst. Hang in there and give yourself some credit - you can do this! I bought a scale last night (analog, per Tina's recommendation) and weighed myself this morning. I wish I had bought it the first day so I could be sure it's callibrated the same as Tara's, but there is no going back now, so I am just going to say that it is which means: I lost 5 pounds after the first day of the VLCD!!! 5 pounds! And now, I have found my motivation. I am already determined to keep my mind in a more positive place today.
A few other things I am noticing: I went to bed earlier last night (which for me is about 11pm). As a result I am waking up earlier. Because I am not snacking and I think I am hungry - but really just bored - I go to bed to avoid sitting there thinking about food. In the long run, the new sleep schedule will be much healthier for me. I have also decided that instead of looking forward to the end of this long, dreadful, no-snacking month, I am going to be present in each moment. Part of never going back to this state I am in now (you know, the one where nothing in your closet fits like it should), is acknowledging and remembering the steps I had to take to get out of this mess.
So first, Jamie and Tina, if your day was anything like mine, today will likely be the worst. Hang in there and give yourself some credit - you can do this! I bought a scale last night (analog, per Tina's recommendation) and weighed myself this morning. I wish I had bought it the first day so I could be sure it's callibrated the same as Tara's, but there is no going back now, so I am just going to say that it is which means: I lost 5 pounds after the first day of the VLCD!!! 5 pounds! And now, I have found my motivation. I am already determined to keep my mind in a more positive place today.
A few other things I am noticing: I went to bed earlier last night (which for me is about 11pm). As a result I am waking up earlier. Because I am not snacking and I think I am hungry - but really just bored - I go to bed to avoid sitting there thinking about food. In the long run, the new sleep schedule will be much healthier for me. I have also decided that instead of looking forward to the end of this long, dreadful, no-snacking month, I am going to be present in each moment. Part of never going back to this state I am in now (you know, the one where nothing in your closet fits like it should), is acknowledging and remembering the steps I had to take to get out of this mess.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
The Housewives aren't the same without a snack in my hand....
I think I am going to bed. I'll DVR the Housewives... My mouth isn't used to being still during this show..
Can we chew gum? Sugar free gum? Habits are hard to break when you are actually trying to break them.
Can we chew gum? Sugar free gum? Habits are hard to break when you are actually trying to break them.
A Post to Refer to, OFTEN
OK... So you want to snack. Maybe your stomach is growling, or you are bored, or that is just what you normally do. When you are trying to fight the urge use the comment section and say what you are craving or feelings that contribute to it.
According to my good friend Tina, keeping a journal helps you figure out why your are craving when you are craving.. I will be using this section for that.. join me if you want.
Thank you for doing this with me girls! I am blessed.
According to my good friend Tina, keeping a journal helps you figure out why your are craving when you are craving.. I will be using this section for that.. join me if you want.
Thank you for doing this with me girls! I am blessed.
Is There Such a Thing as a Food Hangover?!?
If there is, I am pretty sure I am working through one today. I woke up and literally felt like I was rotting inside. And Tara, was right: the worst part is that the high fat, processed, unnatural foods I ate yesterday were pretty much par for the course. I don't usually eat that much in one day, but they are just as bad for my body regardless of the quantities I consume.
Yesterday was a roller coaster for me. I wanted to start eating earlier than I did on Monday so that I wasn't gorging myself at the end of the day to get all m calories in. On my way down to Milwaukee I stopped for a Bacon, Egg and Cheese McGriddle Value Meal (it's not saying much for McDonald's that we all seem to be including them in our "loading days"). For lunch I went to the buffet at Whole Foods - and let me tell you, many of us seem to convince ourselves, that organic, free-range = healthy. If that's the case I filled up on almost two pounds of organic mac and cheese, lasagna, cheesy broccoli casserole, and mashed potatoes smothered in curry chicken. The checkout girl gave me this weird look as she was weighing my food and I had to laugh. I looked at her thinking, "Don't judge me. I'm on a diet!" Then for dessert I had a vegan snickerdoodle cookie: a whopping 536 calories for the cookie alone!!! Mid-afternoon snack = a Naked Pineapple smoothie and protein bar (another 600 calories). For dinner, I had spicy sausage ravioli in a vodka cream sauce, with broccoli, and a buttered roll. Oh yeah, and dessert (again) - Tiramisu and a glass of wine. By the time I climbed into bed, I literally felt like if I didn't fall asleep soon I might be sick. Simply re-reading everything I ate yesterday is disgusting me. Oh well. On to the good news...
This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought was, "This is the fattest you will ever be." I am putting all failed resolutions, dropped diets, and forgotten work-out plans behind me and moving forward. I truly believe that we can achieve everything we believe we can achieve. And this time, I am believing that every step I take in the right direction is a step I will never take back. My body deserves better. I deserve better.
A friend of mine always says, "If you confess it, you possess it." So ladies, here it is: One way or another, I am losing 35 pounds by May 15. And I am going to look great this summer!
How is everyone doing so far today? Jamie and Tina, I think you are still loading today. Good luck finding those calories! So far, so good for me. Grilled chicken and half a tomato for lunch. I am saving my apple for stats class. Couldn't find any grissini breadsticks at the store this morning, so those will have to wait until tomorrow. I'm also a bit behind on my water intake so trying to get to a gallon today should be interesting. Oh, and I cheated - unintentionally. Popped a piece of gum in my mouth in a seminar this morning. It's funny, the things we put in our mouths without thinking. Most often, it's my foot, but today it was mentos gum.
And now, instead of wanting to diet, I just want to shoot myself. Thanks for sending me these, Tara!
Yesterday was a roller coaster for me. I wanted to start eating earlier than I did on Monday so that I wasn't gorging myself at the end of the day to get all m calories in. On my way down to Milwaukee I stopped for a Bacon, Egg and Cheese McGriddle Value Meal (it's not saying much for McDonald's that we all seem to be including them in our "loading days"). For lunch I went to the buffet at Whole Foods - and let me tell you, many of us seem to convince ourselves, that organic, free-range = healthy. If that's the case I filled up on almost two pounds of organic mac and cheese, lasagna, cheesy broccoli casserole, and mashed potatoes smothered in curry chicken. The checkout girl gave me this weird look as she was weighing my food and I had to laugh. I looked at her thinking, "Don't judge me. I'm on a diet!" Then for dessert I had a vegan snickerdoodle cookie: a whopping 536 calories for the cookie alone!!! Mid-afternoon snack = a Naked Pineapple smoothie and protein bar (another 600 calories). For dinner, I had spicy sausage ravioli in a vodka cream sauce, with broccoli, and a buttered roll. Oh yeah, and dessert (again) - Tiramisu and a glass of wine. By the time I climbed into bed, I literally felt like if I didn't fall asleep soon I might be sick. Simply re-reading everything I ate yesterday is disgusting me. Oh well. On to the good news...
This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought was, "This is the fattest you will ever be." I am putting all failed resolutions, dropped diets, and forgotten work-out plans behind me and moving forward. I truly believe that we can achieve everything we believe we can achieve. And this time, I am believing that every step I take in the right direction is a step I will never take back. My body deserves better. I deserve better.
A friend of mine always says, "If you confess it, you possess it." So ladies, here it is: One way or another, I am losing 35 pounds by May 15. And I am going to look great this summer!
How is everyone doing so far today? Jamie and Tina, I think you are still loading today. Good luck finding those calories! So far, so good for me. Grilled chicken and half a tomato for lunch. I am saving my apple for stats class. Couldn't find any grissini breadsticks at the store this morning, so those will have to wait until tomorrow. I'm also a bit behind on my water intake so trying to get to a gallon today should be interesting. Oh, and I cheated - unintentionally. Popped a piece of gum in my mouth in a seminar this morning. It's funny, the things we put in our mouths without thinking. Most often, it's my foot, but today it was mentos gum.
And now, instead of wanting to diet, I just want to shoot myself. Thanks for sending me these, Tara!
Holy Shit I am FAT!
So I am not as eloquent as Jamie when it comes to my realization. My "great awakening" moment was on vacation when my wonderful children kept taking pictures of me from their angle and all I could see was my 3 chins. WTF?! Also being in a swimsuit half the time might have something to do with the great awakening too.
Anyway my story goes likes this. I was a pretty good athlete in high school - basketball and volleyball - so I always considered myself healthy and strong. I went to college, drank way too much beer and ate way to much pizza . Got married, got divorced, met my new husband and married him 6 years later. The only constant friend I had through that time was food. Ironically, I graduated from college with a BS in Dietetics so I know/knew everything you should and shouldn't do if you want to have a healthy lifestyle. I worked at Jenny Craig for 8 years and motivated countless men and women to lose weight, all the while struggling with mine. I ended up quitting right before I had my first baby and lost all my weight and then some. I was doing great maintaining until we had major problems conceiving the second. Once again my good friend food was there to comfort me and I was back on the roller coaster. I finally had a 2nd healthy baby girl but alas this one was a bit of a trouble maker from the start. I suffered from pretty severe post partum. And not the kind where you get weepy but the kind where you want to punch a hole in the wall or stab your husband in the balls with a fork every time he looks at you. Needless to say, it was not a good time in the Jeanquart house. I went through alot of self hate and self destruction by using food to "get back" at my husband. Obviously, the joke was on me.
It is now 6 years later I have ridden the roller coaster up and down. I feel like I am finally ready to grow up and get a realistic handle on this thing called "healthy lifestyle". I'm so glad and so ready to get going!
Whew... that's the most I ever wrote about my fat ass. It was really therapeutic! Thanks for sharing the journey with me girls! :)
Anyway my story goes likes this. I was a pretty good athlete in high school - basketball and volleyball - so I always considered myself healthy and strong. I went to college, drank way too much beer and ate way to much pizza . Got married, got divorced, met my new husband and married him 6 years later. The only constant friend I had through that time was food. Ironically, I graduated from college with a BS in Dietetics so I know/knew everything you should and shouldn't do if you want to have a healthy lifestyle. I worked at Jenny Craig for 8 years and motivated countless men and women to lose weight, all the while struggling with mine. I ended up quitting right before I had my first baby and lost all my weight and then some. I was doing great maintaining until we had major problems conceiving the second. Once again my good friend food was there to comfort me and I was back on the roller coaster. I finally had a 2nd healthy baby girl but alas this one was a bit of a trouble maker from the start. I suffered from pretty severe post partum. And not the kind where you get weepy but the kind where you want to punch a hole in the wall or stab your husband in the balls with a fork every time he looks at you. Needless to say, it was not a good time in the Jeanquart house. I went through alot of self hate and self destruction by using food to "get back" at my husband. Obviously, the joke was on me.
It is now 6 years later I have ridden the roller coaster up and down. I feel like I am finally ready to grow up and get a realistic handle on this thing called "healthy lifestyle". I'm so glad and so ready to get going!
Whew... that's the most I ever wrote about my fat ass. It was really therapeutic! Thanks for sharing the journey with me girls! :)
The Great Awakening
Are you serious!!! Eating 4000+ calories a day is a full time job. All day long I looked for food to consume. Normally I wouldn't have too hard of time eating foods like I did, if I had the opportunity to. So, reflecting back to yesterday I think I have figured out the importance of the first two days.
It is SUPPOSED to COMPLETELY mess with your mind. Your brain is saying "you are getting ready to begin and healthy life style... you aren't supposed to be eating this much." Your other brain (the one that controls your stomach...you know the one... the one that does EXACTLY what is is NOT supposed to do, hence the reason my stomach is it own (and only) best friend) is saying "Yummmmyyy, this is the best diet I have EVER been on"... And then IT happens. What I am now going to refer to as The Great Awakening.
The Great Awakening....a moment I have finally realized something that I have always known.. And, yes, realizing something and knowing something are two totally different things. (If you don't believe me please refer back to a moment in history I refer to as "Wait, what? MC Hammer pants make you look fat?" Pleats in the front make you look wider at the top and tight-rolling the bottoms make your legs look like they are 2' shorter than they really are? So, yes. Knowing and realizing are two different things. Back to The Great Awakening occurring on March 29, 2011.
While trying to consume all of these calories this is SOME of what I ate: A HUGE bowl of Lucky Charms, A Latte from SBucks, a piece of SBucks Lemon loaf, a spinach/feta breakfast wrap, a few candy bars, a bag of popcorn, a cup of Gypsy stew, 2 pieces of bread (to dip in the soup of course), as cheesy artichoke wrap, a handful of chips, a small order of yam fries, a 15 piece chicken nugget, medium fries, box of Milk Duds and a shamrock shake... I think I might be missing a few things. Now looking back over that list, nothing is really out of the ordinary. I eat all of these things at regular intervals. Not all at the same time, or in the same day, but none of them are out of the ordinary for me. My Great Awakening was this: I didn't have to try really hard to rack my brain trying to come up with high calorie, not good for me, make me feel sick food.
The sad fact is that my body didn't adversely react to these foods. Did I feel full, YES. Did I feel disgusted, yes. But that is the messing with my mind part. This is why the first two days of this diet is SO important. When in the past I have ordered (some everyday) these foods, or eaten them on the fly, I did it out of habit not out of need/necessity. When forced to do it out of necessity of this new life I am beginning, I was flat out disgusted. I challenged myself every time I took a bite. I realized every time I took a sip I was taking something in that was collecting in my body. Every chicken nugget I ate reminded me of why I am doing what I am doing. Overeating for two days, was just the punishment I needed. I needed my brain to hit the reset button. And, as of this morning, I think it worked.
And this may have helped, too:
Really? Really..
Welcome to my Great Awakening... I AM NOT buying a new shirt. This one looks just fine (or it will in a few weeks).
It is SUPPOSED to COMPLETELY mess with your mind. Your brain is saying "you are getting ready to begin and healthy life style... you aren't supposed to be eating this much." Your other brain (the one that controls your stomach...you know the one... the one that does EXACTLY what is is NOT supposed to do, hence the reason my stomach is it own (and only) best friend) is saying "Yummmmyyy, this is the best diet I have EVER been on"... And then IT happens. What I am now going to refer to as The Great Awakening.
The Great Awakening....a moment I have finally realized something that I have always known.. And, yes, realizing something and knowing something are two totally different things. (If you don't believe me please refer back to a moment in history I refer to as "Wait, what? MC Hammer pants make you look fat?" Pleats in the front make you look wider at the top and tight-rolling the bottoms make your legs look like they are 2' shorter than they really are? So, yes. Knowing and realizing are two different things. Back to The Great Awakening occurring on March 29, 2011.
While trying to consume all of these calories this is SOME of what I ate: A HUGE bowl of Lucky Charms, A Latte from SBucks, a piece of SBucks Lemon loaf, a spinach/feta breakfast wrap, a few candy bars, a bag of popcorn, a cup of Gypsy stew, 2 pieces of bread (to dip in the soup of course), as cheesy artichoke wrap, a handful of chips, a small order of yam fries, a 15 piece chicken nugget, medium fries, box of Milk Duds and a shamrock shake... I think I might be missing a few things. Now looking back over that list, nothing is really out of the ordinary. I eat all of these things at regular intervals. Not all at the same time, or in the same day, but none of them are out of the ordinary for me. My Great Awakening was this: I didn't have to try really hard to rack my brain trying to come up with high calorie, not good for me, make me feel sick food.
The sad fact is that my body didn't adversely react to these foods. Did I feel full, YES. Did I feel disgusted, yes. But that is the messing with my mind part. This is why the first two days of this diet is SO important. When in the past I have ordered (some everyday) these foods, or eaten them on the fly, I did it out of habit not out of need/necessity. When forced to do it out of necessity of this new life I am beginning, I was flat out disgusted. I challenged myself every time I took a bite. I realized every time I took a sip I was taking something in that was collecting in my body. Every chicken nugget I ate reminded me of why I am doing what I am doing. Overeating for two days, was just the punishment I needed. I needed my brain to hit the reset button. And, as of this morning, I think it worked.
And this may have helped, too:
Really? Really..
Welcome to my Great Awakening... I AM NOT buying a new shirt. This one looks just fine (or it will in a few weeks).
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
My Story...
My journey to being a fattie began 8 years ago when I quit my job to be a stay-at-home mom. The last words from my co-worker on my last day were , "Don't eat too much chocolate!" If only I would've listened! Yep, all that chocolate, fast food, lack of or no exercise has led me to today. Oh, and I did have 3 more kids. I love my body for giving me my 4 beatiful angels. I am not a hater of myself. I love me! I think I am beatiful, and I also think beauty comes from inside and pours out. I'm not being vain. God made me who I am and I want to be the best me I can be. The one thing that I feel bad or guilty about is that He gave me this body and I have not taken good care of it. And I want to be able to keep up with my kids and I want to be a hottie and someone my family can be proud of, more importantly someone I can be proud of. It is embarrassing to be the biggest girl in the room and the largest of my friends. I know if I can lose this weight, I can do anything!! My goal is to lose all my baby weight because on my 35th birthday next year I want to go skydiving.....flab free!
A Few Reasons for Me..
OK.. so nothing like a little, or should I say big, "before" picture to get you motivated! My mirror must be warped a little, because I don't recall seeing that same image before. As I glance at this picture more closely, I can see a four good reasons to go on this diet (one for each roll visibly seen).
1. I want to be the best I can be. I am not here on this Earth very long, so while I am here I can at least try to be my best possible self. Fitting into clothes that are "a little snug" doesn't fall under this category.
2. Fitting into clothes that are "a little snug" deserves it's own number. As in "I have a number of clothes that I would love to wear, but they are always pushed aside when I get dressed in the morning." I am starting to get tennis elbow from all the shoving I do to the clothes in my closet. Pushing the too small clothes out of the way seems to get harder and harder as that section gets bigger and bigger.
3. Is this really who I want to be? I am usually the one that says "I am sick of talking about weight loss." Or, as I have been known to say "When I am 65, am I really going to look back at my 30's and say 'I wish I was 30lbs lighter then!'." Then there is the ever popular "I am glad my weight gain hasn't gotten in the way of my self-confidence or I would really be in trouble." This is not who I want to be. I do not want to be the person coming up with every excuse in the book why I should not worry about losing weight. Here is the truth; I am sick of talking about weight loss, not because I am sick of people talking about it but because I don't want to admit I should be the one talking about it. Yes, when I am 65 I want to look back and say "Wow, wasn't I gorgeous back then?" It will be nice to add that to my legacy list. Truth hurts: My weight gain has gotten in the way of my self confidence. Instead, it has been masked my self-denial and arrogance. This is never a good thing.
4. If Bravo comes to Green Bay and decides to run a reality series, I want to be in the running for The Real Housewives of Brown County, and I don't want it to be because they need "a real-life housewife". I want it to be because they are SO INCREDIBLY surprised that there are such gorgeous people here.
Please do not confuse all of this with "negative self talk". This is just the progression of realizing I am really beautiful, and it is about time it starts shining through. I am also not giving up arrogance...you'd all miss me if that was gone. A little laughter and self love never hurt anyone.....it can just cause blinders sometimes. Time to take off the rose colored glasses and replace them with some super hot Oakleys....cause they are going to be the perfect accessory to the new me.
1. I want to be the best I can be. I am not here on this Earth very long, so while I am here I can at least try to be my best possible self. Fitting into clothes that are "a little snug" doesn't fall under this category.
2. Fitting into clothes that are "a little snug" deserves it's own number. As in "I have a number of clothes that I would love to wear, but they are always pushed aside when I get dressed in the morning." I am starting to get tennis elbow from all the shoving I do to the clothes in my closet. Pushing the too small clothes out of the way seems to get harder and harder as that section gets bigger and bigger.
3. Is this really who I want to be? I am usually the one that says "I am sick of talking about weight loss." Or, as I have been known to say "When I am 65, am I really going to look back at my 30's and say 'I wish I was 30lbs lighter then!'." Then there is the ever popular "I am glad my weight gain hasn't gotten in the way of my self-confidence or I would really be in trouble." This is not who I want to be. I do not want to be the person coming up with every excuse in the book why I should not worry about losing weight. Here is the truth; I am sick of talking about weight loss, not because I am sick of people talking about it but because I don't want to admit I should be the one talking about it. Yes, when I am 65 I want to look back and say "Wow, wasn't I gorgeous back then?" It will be nice to add that to my legacy list. Truth hurts: My weight gain has gotten in the way of my self confidence. Instead, it has been masked my self-denial and arrogance. This is never a good thing.
4. If Bravo comes to Green Bay and decides to run a reality series, I want to be in the running for The Real Housewives of Brown County, and I don't want it to be because they need "a real-life housewife". I want it to be because they are SO INCREDIBLY surprised that there are such gorgeous people here.
Please do not confuse all of this with "negative self talk". This is just the progression of realizing I am really beautiful, and it is about time it starts shining through. I am also not giving up arrogance...you'd all miss me if that was gone. A little laughter and self love never hurt anyone.....it can just cause blinders sometimes. Time to take off the rose colored glasses and replace them with some super hot Oakleys....cause they are going to be the perfect accessory to the new me.
Monday, March 28, 2011
A Few Tips from YouTube Videos
Ok, so I was busy watching HCG YouTube videos (thanks, Tara) and I found a few tips I thought I'd share with you:
1. Drink at least a gallon of water a day. Add Stevia and your one lemon per day into a gallon pitcher and keep in the fridge for a sweetened lemonade-type drink.
2. Make a vinagrette for the veggie you choose at your mealtime: stevia, apple cider vinegar, garlic, water and spices
3. Crunch up your Grissini breadstick and mix it with lemon juice to use as a breading for your chicken or fish.
4. Take Magnesium Citrate to keep things moving
5. Use Johnson and Johnson Baby Gel as a moisturizer
6. Use crystal deodorant.
7. Check your shower gels - many have oil. Suggested: Jason Rose-Water satin body gel
8. Moisturizer - Alba Oil-free green tea moisturizer
9. Jason Biotin Shampoo and Condition - biotin is great for healthy hair thickening and growth; will help to compensate for any decreased protein intake during the diet
10. Buy keto sticks to check for ketosis
11. Mix-up your proteins: Dr. Simeon advised that you do not eat the same two proteins for lunch and dinner
12. No Crystal Light, diet sodas
13. Dr. Simeon's original diet plan allowed beef, although this is not American beef (which is much higher in fat) - it was closer to veal; try to use very lean beef, or better yet, buffalo meat (at Woodman's or Trader Joe's)
1. Drink at least a gallon of water a day. Add Stevia and your one lemon per day into a gallon pitcher and keep in the fridge for a sweetened lemonade-type drink.
2. Make a vinagrette for the veggie you choose at your mealtime: stevia, apple cider vinegar, garlic, water and spices
3. Crunch up your Grissini breadstick and mix it with lemon juice to use as a breading for your chicken or fish.
4. Take Magnesium Citrate to keep things moving
5. Use Johnson and Johnson Baby Gel as a moisturizer
6. Use crystal deodorant.
7. Check your shower gels - many have oil. Suggested: Jason Rose-Water satin body gel
8. Moisturizer - Alba Oil-free green tea moisturizer
9. Jason Biotin Shampoo and Condition - biotin is great for healthy hair thickening and growth; will help to compensate for any decreased protein intake during the diet
10. Buy keto sticks to check for ketosis
11. Mix-up your proteins: Dr. Simeon advised that you do not eat the same two proteins for lunch and dinner
12. No Crystal Light, diet sodas
13. Dr. Simeon's original diet plan allowed beef, although this is not American beef (which is much higher in fat) - it was closer to veal; try to use very lean beef, or better yet, buffalo meat (at Woodman's or Trader Joe's)
Let the Feeding Frenzy Begin....
Ok, girls....here we go. We have 48 hours to eat as much as we can possible stuff into our stomachs. As I write this, Tara and I are sitting here enjoying a Happy Joe's BLT pizza...and we are already talking about what else we will be enjoying today.
Here is your task list for the next 48 hours:
*Eat as much as possible
*Share your food fun and favorite recipes with the rest of us
*Post your goal for total pounds lost
Here is your task list for the next 48 hours:
*Eat as much as possible
*Share your food fun and favorite recipes with the rest of us
*Post your goal for total pounds lost
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