It is SUPPOSED to COMPLETELY mess with your mind. Your brain is saying "you are getting ready to begin and healthy life style... you aren't supposed to be eating this much." Your other brain (the one that controls your stomach...you know the one... the one that does EXACTLY what is is NOT supposed to do, hence the reason my stomach is it own (and only) best friend) is saying "Yummmmyyy, this is the best diet I have EVER been on"... And then IT happens. What I am now going to refer to as The Great Awakening.
The Great Awakening....a moment I have finally realized something that I have always known.. And, yes, realizing something and knowing something are two totally different things. (If you don't believe me please refer back to a moment in history I refer to as "Wait, what? MC Hammer pants make you look fat?" Pleats in the front make you look wider at the top and tight-rolling the bottoms make your legs look like they are 2' shorter than they really are? So, yes. Knowing and realizing are two different things. Back to The Great Awakening occurring on March 29, 2011.
While trying to consume all of these calories this is SOME of what I ate: A HUGE bowl of Lucky Charms, A Latte from SBucks, a piece of SBucks Lemon loaf, a spinach/feta breakfast wrap, a few candy bars, a bag of popcorn, a cup of Gypsy stew, 2 pieces of bread (to dip in the soup of course), as cheesy artichoke wrap, a handful of chips, a small order of yam fries, a 15 piece chicken nugget, medium fries, box of Milk Duds and a shamrock shake... I think I might be missing a few things. Now looking back over that list, nothing is really out of the ordinary. I eat all of these things at regular intervals. Not all at the same time, or in the same day, but none of them are out of the ordinary for me. My Great Awakening was this: I didn't have to try really hard to rack my brain trying to come up with high calorie, not good for me, make me feel sick food.
The sad fact is that my body didn't adversely react to these foods. Did I feel full, YES. Did I feel disgusted, yes. But that is the messing with my mind part. This is why the first two days of this diet is SO important. When in the past I have ordered (some everyday) these foods, or eaten them on the fly, I did it out of habit not out of need/necessity. When forced to do it out of necessity of this new life I am beginning, I was flat out disgusted. I challenged myself every time I took a bite. I realized every time I took a sip I was taking something in that was collecting in my body. Every chicken nugget I ate reminded me of why I am doing what I am doing. Overeating for two days, was just the punishment I needed. I needed my brain to hit the reset button. And, as of this morning, I think it worked.
And this may have helped, too:
Really? Really..
Welcome to my Great Awakening... I AM NOT buying a new shirt. This one looks just fine (or it will in a few weeks).
The last picture, I have decided, bothers me the most.
ReplyDeleteThese 2 days have definitely been punishment, but i totally agree with evverything you said. My typical day: Lg. carmal white choc.mocha from SB. Lunch: usually some fast food place, trying to get some thing healthy, but hey, it is fast food. Dinner: It's sure been alot of pizza lately. My biggest fear is that I have passed my bad eating habits on to my kids. With one obese parent, the stats are your kid is 50% to be obese. With 2 obese parents, its like 80% maybe more. But I am changing all that tomorrow! If I can't eat that crap, my family's not either.
ReplyDeleteTara, I need you to take some before pics. for me.
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