So I am not as eloquent as Jamie when it comes to my realization. My "great awakening" moment was on vacation when my wonderful children kept taking pictures of me from their angle and all I could see was my 3 chins. WTF?! Also being in a swimsuit half the time might have something to do with the great awakening too.
Anyway my story goes likes this. I was a pretty good athlete in high school - basketball and volleyball - so I always considered myself healthy and strong. I went to college, drank way too much beer and ate way to much pizza . Got married, got divorced, met my new husband and married him 6 years later. The only constant friend I had through that time was food. Ironically, I graduated from college with a BS in Dietetics so I know/knew everything you should and shouldn't do if you want to have a healthy lifestyle. I worked at Jenny Craig for 8 years and motivated countless men and women to lose weight, all the while struggling with mine. I ended up quitting right before I had my first baby and lost all my weight and then some. I was doing great maintaining until we had major problems conceiving the second. Once again my good friend food was there to comfort me and I was back on the roller coaster. I finally had a 2nd healthy baby girl but alas this one was a bit of a trouble maker from the start. I suffered from pretty severe post partum. And not the kind where you get weepy but the kind where you want to punch a hole in the wall or stab your husband in the balls with a fork every time he looks at you. Needless to say, it was not a good time in the Jeanquart house. I went through alot of self hate and self destruction by using food to "get back" at my husband. Obviously, the joke was on me.
It is now 6 years later I have ridden the roller coaster up and down. I feel like I am finally ready to grow up and get a realistic handle on this thing called "healthy lifestyle". I'm so glad and so ready to get going!
Whew... that's the most I ever wrote about my fat ass. It was really therapeutic! Thanks for sharing the journey with me girls! :)
I know we just started, but I can already tell what a difference it is going to be to have you girls for support over the next month. The thought of going in to weigh in with other women at Weight Watchers or Jenny Craig used to terrify me - although I would cover up the fear, but saying, "I'm strong than that...I don't need accountability partners to make good decisions." Ha! Look where that got me. So thankful, to have you ladies! And I love reading your posts!!
ReplyDeleteTina.. did you know Alana took a picture of my face and tried to make it fat on an iphone app. Guess what... It didn't look that different than I normally do. That is hilarious... I guess I need to post my story pretty soon..
ReplyDeleteWow, what a story Tina! I too suffered from post partum after Eli. I'm tired of having to be everything for everyone so much so,that I have not made me, my first priority. I will not be a victim to food anymore! I am taking my power back and not letting food control me anymore! Woo Hoo- Bring it on....actually, slim it down!
ReplyDeleteLOVE "taking the power back!" That is awesome! The other one I like is staying in the present and not worrying about the next meal or the next day.... doing the best that I can in the moment. So funny b/c I use to say these things to my Jenny craig clients and never used them myself. GOD am I messed up! haha Good thing you girls are here to remind me!
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