Tara, I have to admit reading your post just now was encouraging to me. Today was a long, long day for me. I'm glad I'm not the only one. Instead of being motivated by our weight loss totals and morning meeting, I just felt like I was leaving the first 12 pounds behind and starting over again. It's exhausting. Driving by the Zesty's on Riverside, seeing the "Now Open" sign and forcing myself to drive past my favorite flavor (Cookies 'n Cream) didn't help any. It feels like the day I can finally enjoy a bowl of ice cream again is so far away.
Then tonight I watched "Biggest Loser". One of the girls has had two pretty unsuccessful weeks in a row. She was ready to give up, when her husband told her that she needed to find a way to break through the wall she was up against. Every other time she got as far as she has, she has given up. Every other time I've gotten this far, I've given up. I am only fooling myself if I think I will ever look any better (and, in turn, feel any better) if I can't find a way to push through this. The best things in life are worth fighting for, right? And if I am being honest with myself, I will never be truly happy with myself in the shape I am in now.
So tonight, I am not enjoying it, but I am pushing through....because I am not starting over again.
Rebekah~ you are so inspiring! Good for you that you recognized what is going on are choosing to push through it. I have this great book that trainer Jackie Warner wrote and it has some fantastic information in it about how sugar works in your body and why it is so bad to overdo it. All the things she said about getting off the sugar and what the results will be are happening to me. Better skin, better digestion etc... things that can't be measured. Whenever I feel tempted for sugar I grab that book and read that section. 95% of the time it has made my craving stop. (i.e. jellybeans) This all comes down to a mind game! I know it will get harder in the next 3 weeks but I am NOT going to beat myself up for not being perfect. I have to do it my way for it to work and be meaningful and long lasting. Sounds like you have figured that out too!!
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We are all rooting for you, Rebekah! You are worth fighting for! You are totally worth it! And we are right her pushing through that wall with you!
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