Monday, April 4, 2011

My current battle..

I am craving craving craving sugar... Rebekah, I think this is the source of our headaches. I have just read a ton of reports on the sudden decrease of sugar intake. Headaches are one of the biggest side effects!
Great! Now I have to be thankful for the dull ache in my head for the last 2 days!

And, let me just say, today was the first day I actually was truly tempted by chocolate. I don't know how much longer I can give it up.. If Allen ends up dead, don't be surprised if it's from chocolate chips being stuffed up his nose and his mouth taped shut. hahahahahah! ;)  He is doing better than I (we all) am on this diet. What the f*%k ever.

thanks !

Just wanted to say thanks to all of you for taking this journey with me! Your comments and posts keep me smiling and motivated. I know I couldn't do this alone!

Also I found a fun drink - I steeped 4 green tea bags and poured them in a pitcher over ice and added the Vitamin h20 zero (lemonade flavor) with some fresh lemon wedges. It was fantastic! Obviously, you can't drink it all day long but it was a nice little treat to break up the water, coffee, & tea. The vitamin water zero is made with stevia. (It is on sale at Festival right now 5/$5)

Have a great Monday! :)

Week 1 Results

Ok, girls!  Week one brought some incredible results.  Way to stick to your goals and find the willpower to make it through the first week.

We saw Biggest Loser type percentage losses:
Tara: 4.3% of body weight lost
Jaime: 4.1% of body weight lost
Rebekah: 6.0% of body weight lost
Tina: 4.4% of body weight lost

As a group we lost a total of 37.5 pounds!!!!  Incredible!
Amazing results, ladies!! 

Goals for next week:
Tina: Drink the 85 ounces of water each day
Tara:  Eat at 12pm and 5pm each day (no later than 6pm)
Rebekah:  Fit into my jeans
Jaime: (let us know when you pick a goal - other than pounds/inches lost)

Ready, set, go......

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Tomorrow and other news..

FYI: 100g is 3.524 oz... This helped me with portions today.

Regarding tomorrow:
1. Every body bring your dollar bills.... dollar dollar  bill y'all! Can't wait to see them filling a jar
2. Come with some accomplishments to write down.
3. Share your favorite ideas for dinner/lunch.
4. Tina will explain the ribbon thing in more detail tomorrow.. I loved what she told me!
5. I'll have coffee and tea here for everyone... does anyone have some sweet'n'low they can bring? I am out.
6. I'll have the scale and we will also take measurements.. Rebekah, can you bring your notebook to keep track?
7. Everyone be ready to bring some ideas for rewards.. I need some good ole' competition to keep me motivated.

See you all tomorrow! How did one week go by already? Maybe it's because I've spent hours of my life on this blog! hahahha

Was blind..but now I see

Today during church the sermon focused on the story of Jesus and how he made a blind man see. Not only was the Sermon funny, but is resounded more deeply than I anticipated.

How true this statement has been for me over this past week. I have closed my eyes for so many moments in my recent past life. When I looked in a mirror, when I tried on swimsuits, when I got undressed in front of Allen, when I was naked in bed and so many more. I also closed my mind to the fact that I was really OK.

I would not let myself begin to think ill of my body, or admit that I was gaining some weight, out loud. I said it to myself and reflection, many times, but never as publicly as this. I would refuse to buy bigger clothes (and then blamed it on the manufactures being persuaded by the like of Hollywood to downgrade sizes) and close my eyes to how my outside affected those around me.

Julia grabs my tummy (handfuls of it, really) and says how soft and squishy it is. Awesome. I used to think it was so cute and that I couldn't believe there was such an unconditional love being displayed in front of me. (As, it was always followed by "Mom, you are so beautiful. I love you so much!"). Maria told me that she liked me better when my boobs weren't so big and I could run faster.. I am not going to even comment on this one. Allen has always believed (although he has never QUITE come out and said so) that he would have a wife full of energy and not afraid to hang out at the beach for fear of looking fat in a swimsuit (forget that I burn as easily as a piece of white bread under the broiler). 

I was blind. Because I chose to be. It was easier and more effective to get through each day. Through this process I have begun to see. I have begun to see the food I used to eat, the drinks I used to drink, the snacks I used to snack, the arrogance of arrogance and the real me I want to be.

I am promising to always keep my eyes open from this point forward. I want to see every moment of this through to the end. And then continue beyond when I don't think I can carry on another moment. I want to wear the jeans from the buckle that I love, and not be afraid to shop there for fear of what the girls working there might think. I want to see my heart open up to the possibility that the me ahead is better than the me I am leaving behind. I want to open my mind to all the revelations I am making as I continue the path.

I was blind but now I see. Thank God I have God. Thank God I have friends. Thank God I have me and the better me yet to come.

Weekends SUCK

So this being the first weekend of the "diet" I am not going to freak out. I am going to take the challenges I faced and use them as a learning experience. Deep breath in and deep breath out......

Lesson 1~ The challenge of having the whole family home all weekend didn't occur to me. Let me tell you, it does now! I learned I need to be prepared with my meals and snacks b/c otherwise I am very tempted when they are snacking or asking me 100 times "what's for b-fast, lunch or dinner?"

Lesson 2~ Jellybeans are the devil taunting me with temptation. I wish I could say I told the devil jellybeans to go back to hell where they belong but alas, I wasn't that strong and ate a handful! However, I DID NOT let this destroy my confidence. I told myself, I didn't get fat b/c I ate a handful of jellybeans. I got right back on track and pushed even more water. Take that jellybeans!

Lesson 3~ Always carry water with you. I know this is such a stupid, simple thing to remember but dang if I didn't keep forgetting when I got in the car. I was tempted to fall back into my old habit of stopping at McD for a diet coke or Starbux for a latte. I need to make this lesson a priority.

All in all, I know I am making progress b/c the scale tells me I am. But the thing I am most proud of is that I am making progress in my head! And really, that is the most valuable to me b/c I need to make this a LIFESTYLE. My husband told me yesterday that my face was glowing and he couldn't see the sunspots on my face that I had when we were in San Diego. I am pretty sure all the water and no soda/sugar has alot to do with that but I also think it is the HcG. WOW another benefit! It motivates me even more to stay on track. Can't wait to see all of you beautiful gals tomorrow morning. Thank God the weekend will be over soon! :)

Let the countdown begin...

I can hardly believe that in just 24 hours we will be back together for our week 1 weigh-in!  Let me tell you, the last time I did this HCG thing my weeks were dragging by.  I literally went to work and then came home and just waited until it was time to go to bed.  In contrast, this time around I am excited about each new day.  I feel energized and encouraged every morning. 

Last night I posted a new link in the side bar.  The website the link takes you to gives a lot of information about what HCG does in your body and how it will make you feel.  It also addresses many of the FAQs we have about what to expect.  There were two things that struck me:  it is recommended to walk an hour a day;  the first three days of VLCD are the hardest.  So hallelujah, we are through the worst of it!!  I felt great all day and all night yesterday (my day 4) which makes me believe this theory is correct.  As for the walking part, I am going to do a little more research to confirm this.  Now I'm not saying go out and run a marathon - strenuous exercise will exhaust you easier, but a few good walks in the "beautiful" spring weather would be kind of nice.

I have to admit I'm sort of enjoying the thunder this morning...hopefully it means spring is here to stay.  Have a great rest of the weekend ladies, I'll see you tomorrow morning (dollar bills in hand).